-pari-
Active Member
(beware - hsc rant to follow)
i am sickof my daily inability to finish everything i've planned.
knowing i dont HAVE a tomorrow to complete the work i was meant to complete today.
i'm sick of doing modern history every godddammn day and still not having finished one module. i'm sick of thinking about all the effing work i haven't done since trials and planning to do it but never getting round to it.
i'm annoyed and scared of all the maths questions i suddenly dont know how to do, the ones i keep getting wrong
i'm sick of the feeling that i'm not pushing myself hard enoough even though i dont really do much else other than study or think of study or attempt to study.
i hate trying to constantly balance between trying to get things DONE and trying to get things done PROPERLY.
and the constant thought that - sh*t i bet every kid in the state is way more prepared than i am? ah that's a little overwhelming too.
and all up with all this "sick"ness it's quite tempting to go into denial mode and just do nothing. that feeling that you have such a huge load infront of you to cover in this miniscule amount of time...........where do you start?!
and why'm i posting this?
just to "let it out".
i am sickof my daily inability to finish everything i've planned.
knowing i dont HAVE a tomorrow to complete the work i was meant to complete today.
i'm sick of doing modern history every godddammn day and still not having finished one module. i'm sick of thinking about all the effing work i haven't done since trials and planning to do it but never getting round to it.
i'm annoyed and scared of all the maths questions i suddenly dont know how to do, the ones i keep getting wrong
i'm sick of the feeling that i'm not pushing myself hard enoough even though i dont really do much else other than study or think of study or attempt to study.
i hate trying to constantly balance between trying to get things DONE and trying to get things done PROPERLY.
and the constant thought that - sh*t i bet every kid in the state is way more prepared than i am? ah that's a little overwhelming too.
and all up with all this "sick"ness it's quite tempting to go into denial mode and just do nothing. that feeling that you have such a huge load infront of you to cover in this miniscule amount of time...........where do you start?!
and why'm i posting this?
just to "let it out".