blink me said:
I have legal and 2u re. i tried study for the past f****ing month, i cant remeber anyting. i forgot my master essays for the moduels in advanced. i didnt get the questions. i wanted to do law. but ill get a uai of about 60 something i think... i have worked my asss off for the last two years.. and aspired to go to uni from a young age? tell i have someone that feels like me? please. i want to die... im getting so sck... i think im going to get zero tomorrow....
I've wanted to do Law for a couple of years too, but mostly because I thought it would be the coolest job to just run around in a court all day as a barrister.
I've always been very average in my selective school and my friends all dux atleast 2 or 3 subjects each (i'm talking maths ext1/2, eng/ext, phys, Sydney Boys).
It gets dispiriting seeing them kick ass in everything so I put in a whole heap of work last year and duxed Legal, Eng Ext 1 and 2nd in Eco, which was outrageous for me because I've never come close before.
Now I've dropped from 10 to 90 places in all my subjects this year. I think it had something to do with overconfidence. I've never handled being no.1 before so it was like catching an elephant from the sky really.
I know I won't get into law now, but I'm fine with that. I would've probably just got some boring office job at Earnest & Young or something.
The way I see it, our careers can go wherever we want after high school. How many of the richest and successful were valecdictorians.
And besides, we're not in cuba. We can all speak english, so we won't be scrubbing walls.
Start building something after HS. You've got 70 years to make something.
Make sure you've got goals (reading a book will do)
But then again, in the short run, you should probably do some studying (rather than what I'm doing now).
Take a quick nap if you feel groggy.
Ofcourse, I get a lot of the usual symptoms too:
- Procrastination
- Feels like you're letting everyone down
- Oh no oh no the earth is splitting
- Is that you, martha stewart? You want me to what?
Getting through all this is kinda like jumping off of a cliff; some people might have better parachutes, but they might not run the fastest when they touch the ground.
I'm often annoyingly naive but the Hsc is one month. There's just not enough time for someone's life to change so much that they can't fix it in a year.
Hope that helped. When I feel like my head's about to explode it usually means that I haven't slept. And everything seems like a bad idea in the morning, just in case you feel like crap at dawn. We all do.
And I know it doesn't help when people react with "duuude, like.. wooah man. like woah. you're like, just, duuude". Idiots, the whole hell of 'em. =)
Pain is universal.
It builds character. Really.
Go with it.
I ramble when I'm stressed.
Quick reply my ass