I don't know what I think about trying hard or whatever. Because I have been trying hard since Year 11 and I really stepped up for Year 12, and my marks are just getting worse. I feel like I'm getting more dumb as I get older. I think I may have peaked too early (kindergarten was great).
I'm a dumb nerd and I study so much that there are alot of nights that I don't sleep much, for example, I started my trials on Monday and in the last three nights I have had a combined total of around 11.5 hours sleep, but so far, I have been travelling okay, I mean I'm still awake now.
My parents and some teachers have been saying that I need to sleep more and stop stressing, and although I know they only have my best interests at heart, it pisses me off because stress is what I do. I know that if I don't study there is NO CHANCE of me passing any exam.
But last week I was studying for economics and went to sleep early because I was sick of working. I went to bed around 11pm and I woke up around 1:30 in like a panic attack or something. I don't know what was wrong with me, but I just sat upright in bed all confused about what was going on, and from then on, I only slept in half hour intervals. So, even if I do try and get more sleep, it doesn't help because I even stress when I'm sleeping! Yes, i am a loser.
There have been times (such as yesterday) where I have felt so bloody depressed about my exams that I have decided to give up on studying altogether. This resulted in me having a breakdown last night and me failing English Paper 2 this morning (I think).
So, in conclusion, I would like to be able to find a balance, but when I don't study I feel guilty and it stresses me even more, which is undisputably something no HSC student needs during the trials, and if I don't study, I'm even worse off. I would have to say that unless it is killing you (literally or pschologically), there is no such thing as pushing yourself too hard. And to be honest, some people in my grade aren't pushing themselves enough.